i have come (TO THE END> PERHAPS)

to the realization that . . . (are you ready for this one?)

i don't like blogging. now, don't get me wrong--i actually love blogging for The Dozens, but for some reason, i hate keeping up my personal blog-avocadoish yummy things.

i have tried longer, more frequent posts.

i am trying short posts.

i have tried "more photo" posts (as much as i can do--this may be due to the fact that i am a film girl and we are a dying breed.)

i have tried "not blogging," then i miss it a bit.

one of the reasons may be that (funny as it may seem--but maybe not if you study astrology) my astro chart says i'm an "introverted extrovert"...

TRANSLATION: i don't like sharing stuff about me unless i feel like you really know me and genuinely care about me. in cyberspace, it's hard to know who would actually care about me--my life--my issues--so my thought is, "why bother sharing?" i am not a private person if you strike up a conversation. but that would mean we'd be face to face, (or i know you from elsewhere or we have developed a relationship via email or "heavy blog-buddy-ing) and i can be free to skip the small talk and really discuss issues and, quite possibly, debate those issues.

which brings me to my next bit of astrological news. astrology also says i dislike small talk, which, i find to be the truest of true. i can't sit on a machine and talk to myself. i have a hard time with it. i crave dialogue that's honest. i detest small talk.

i don't watch a lot of tv, so that rules out the possibility of chatting about that. although i do indulge in a few reality shows, but it's mainly to keep my brain minimally occupied once i'm drained from a morning of teaching or caring for my dd. (okay--i love "project runway"--but i don't feel i can tell you about it, b/c if you watch it, you ALREADY KNOW about it. if you don't watch it, you must not like it, so why should i blab about it? that's my thinking...) plus--if you, too, love "project runway" i want to debate it with you--discuss the designers--revel in the glory of the designs and blunders, and we need to do that in person! so i prove my point.

that said, i'm considering stopping the blog. not sure yet, but i don't enjoy small talk, and i don't love spilling my guts to a machine, or the world-at-large with little intimacy.  i AM, however, considering doing a Dozens retreat or something like that--then we can get to know one another, for real, and chat about whatever. lemme know what you think about that. so tell me--leave me a comment about:

1) continuing the blog. write a LOT, for goodness sake.

and/ or

2) having a little art retreat. tell a LOT, for goodness sake.

that's all today. tsmfr.

xoxo

D. :)

PS-no comments means i prpbably will stop this thing, and perhaps end some agony of trying to maintain the thing to any level of homosapien interest.

Comments

[NicholD]

Hi Dana. I could go on and on about this post but i won't.
Main thing is I love your blog b/c i think you are a unique and inspiring person that i can relate to. however, i do get what your saying and thats probably the reason i wouldn't have a blog myself when it seems like the rest of the world does.sooo,
couldn't u set your blog as private where readers have to join or something. that way u know whos visiting and don't feel like your spilling your guts to the general public? i have no idea how blogs work but thats what i thought i saw on a couple of blogs.
anyways, good luck with whatever u decide. and thanks for being an inspiration!!!

[dana]

Thanks, Nichol! That's a good idea... and before I wondered why some people don't get blogs. Now I realize why. It just may not be for everyone, but who knows?? :P Keep the ideas coming.

[Staceydotdot]

I do love your blog, Dana! It's refreshing and I love to see the face behind the name that thinks up the Dozens kits!lol! BUT!!! Im more interested in what others do with the kit and sneak peeks etc, so the dozens blog would be fine for me! It would satifsy my needs!lol!
Why are you going to write up your blog, doing something you are not enjoying?! If you dont enjoy it, it will eventually show in your writing!

It sounds a good idea to have a Dozens group where all members can talk. Im just not sure what would be the best way to do that!

I say stop if youre not enjoying it! We can always read the dozens blog or go to FLickr! :)

[dani]

ohh, I don't know what to say! I would hate to see you go because I love your creativeness even if it's few and far between....

but at the same time I understand!

Have you ever thought about having a just a private blog so that way you can spill and do whatever you want and it will still feel safer for you to share yourself?

idunno, that's just something I thought of.

I would hate to see you go.. :(

[Fauve van Maanen]

Ow,i would be totally bummed if you stop blogging.I love to read it and seeying youre oh so gorgeous work!

[vee]

please don't stop but if it is not in you i totally understand! :)
xo!!

[Michelle Clement]

Aw, man..I love your posts like these, girl. :) he he...And I think the stars say I'm an intorverted extrovert, too...heh. But how cool would a Dozens' retreat be?? Dude..

[JenniferP]

ok. here's the deal.
im going to need you to not quit your blog.
great.
done. and done.
i love your blog and i LOVE you.
that being said,
if your aren't feelin' it, i wouldn't want you to keep on.
with me being bossy and stuff.
a dozens retreat??!@?
hell to the yes!
im so there.
your posts make me smile.
you make me smile.
i love you girl!
jp. :)

[Nora Anne]

well, I have to say as someone visiting your blog for the first time (and loving it!!!) I would be sad not to be able to visit it again.
Thank you so much for your post and you are MORE than welcome to borrow that poem (I would say you can HAVE it, but since it is not mine to give away, you can borrow it!) I found it online and it really touched me. I lost my mom last year on 8/21 and it is the hardest thing I've ever been through. Every day I miss her and every day I still wait for her to come back. Thank you so much for reaching out and hugs to you.
xoxo Nora Anne
p.s. I love the Dozens, I just ordered my first mini kit (the full onw was sold out, I missed it!)