to the realization that . . . (are you ready for this one?)
i don't like blogging. now, don't get me wrong--i actually love blogging for The Dozens, but for some reason, i hate keeping up my personal blog-avocadoish yummy things.
i have tried longer, more frequent posts.
i am trying short posts.
i have tried "more photo" posts (as much as i can do--this may be due to the fact that i am a film girl and we are a dying breed.)
i have tried "not blogging," then i miss it a bit.
one of the reasons may be that (funny as it may seem--but maybe not if you study astrology) my astro chart says i'm an "introverted extrovert"...
TRANSLATION: i don't like sharing stuff about me unless i feel like you really know me and genuinely care about me. in cyberspace, it's hard to know who would actually care about me--my life--my issues--so my thought is, "why bother sharing?" i am not a private person if you strike up a conversation. but that would mean we'd be face to face, (or i know you from elsewhere or we have developed a relationship via email or "heavy blog-buddy-ing) and i can be free to skip the small talk and really discuss issues and, quite possibly, debate those issues.
which brings me to my next bit of astrological news. astrology also says i dislike small talk, which, i find to be the truest of true. i can't sit on a machine and talk to myself. i have a hard time with it. i crave dialogue that's honest. i detest small talk.
i don't watch a lot of tv, so that rules out the possibility of chatting about that. although i do indulge in a few reality shows, but it's mainly to keep my brain minimally occupied once i'm drained from a morning of teaching or caring for my dd. (okay--i love "project runway"--but i don't feel i can tell you about it, b/c if you watch it, you ALREADY KNOW about it. if you don't watch it, you must not like it, so why should i blab about it? that's my thinking...) plus--if you, too, love "project runway" i want to debate it with you--discuss the designers--revel in the glory of the designs and blunders, and we need to do that in person! so i prove my point.
that said, i'm considering stopping the blog. not sure yet, but i don't enjoy small talk, and i don't love spilling my guts to a machine, or the world-at-large with little intimacy. i AM, however, considering doing a Dozens retreat or something like that--then we can get to know one another, for real, and chat about whatever. lemme know what you think about that. so tell me--leave me a comment about:
1) continuing the blog. write a LOT, for goodness sake.
and/ or
2) having a little art retreat. tell a LOT, for goodness sake.
that's all today. tsmfr.
xoxo
D. :)
PS-no comments means i prpbably will stop this thing, and perhaps end some agony of trying to maintain the thing to any level of homosapien interest.
